So Here I Lay

So here I lay,
thinking about you

specifically you

I can't help it.

You're like perfect.
I like so many things about you.

If you can just discard me without having second thoughts, then I admire your will.

However, I feel like we could hook up.

Its not that big of a deal... but you have no idea how love deprived I have forced myself into being.

I haven't even made it to second base.




My speculation is that the world will be demolished, in one clean swipe.

Dimensions can crash into each other, causing a "big bang"

Muzzle is a mic check.

I am here to tell you how things are.

Don't flow with it, just roll with it

Grow a fro or some shit

and despite fighting a million battles of words

we know no glory, nor freedom

To be free is a state of mind.

To see sun shine is a hypocritical nature.

Smoke some Salvia, son.

It is best if you grow it yourself.

Who knows what the government puts in the stuff that they process into smoking form.




Stay away from hard drugs, and liquor.

Pills are not the answer to your life story.


Fucking A.
I am in love with you.
How else can I state it?
Wendy. Wendy!
I know you're out there!
I'm addicted to Wendy's!
My name is Dave!
Dave is Wendy's daddy!

I could so easily be a stalker to your image.
However, I think you don't like me.
Its probably because I am able to get way deeper thoughts out by typing.

I guess its a new form of socialization... if some one is on the computer so much, they eventually live a life within their virtual presence.

Some people have made a living off of video games.
Getting to be pro is important, but the most important thing is who you know online.
The connections that you have are key... just like in real life.
The valuable lesson is to always have good karma and work hard, and you will survive.

Some people make a living at hurting other people... other people just tend to step on the next guy over, in order to save himself.

I don't know how women think... but I want one who can match my level of music and philosophy. Perhaps, an artist or poet would be suiting. I do believe that Wendy is extremely talented in these aspects, as long as she tries to be. I can't become homed in on one poor girl, though... I have to venture out and meet others. It sucks to be so shy that you barely meet women... or the women you come in contact with look at you like you're a criminal or something. Wendy was always just really cool, and she made me feel comfortable about just being myself. I suppose I am a big schmuck for writing personal shit... who cares. I think I could do a better job of showing her a good time, if I get another chance to see her. As far as other women, I am still looking... but I am not "up for grabs", and that kind of sucks because I don't know if Wendy is the one. I'd probably have to ask her a bunch of personal questions, and she'd be uncomfortable.

I think that I get too personal, some times. I've got to control that. People don't deserve to have a level of drama raised amongst my presence. Instead, I shall try to comfort my friends... and help them out if I can.

I figure that as long as I try to do the right things... that I will be successful. Art, music, and poetry... are enough of a job for me to focus on it and get payed (hopefully).

For now, still performing free shows.

I am performing on Dec 4th, First Friday at the Thunder Bird Lounge, at the Aruba Hotel on Las Vegas BLVD, in between Charleston and Oakey. I'll keep you posted on the line up of bands. Its going to be bad ass.


I realized that I am completely happy being alone... and this has reestablished the state of mind in which I can forget about sex with women. It is really hard, but I am going to place a solid effort towards forgetting about worrying about whether Wendy and I eventually hook up or not.

The main problem is that it means more to me than it does to her. I am not even sure if she likes me... because she was all mad at me, last time... over a misunderstanding.

I think that over all, I just need to work on having a positive outlook and at least maintain looks and gestures that exemplify the good traits in social behavior.

After staring at a screen for so many years, I forgot how to talk and act around people. Also, I was always a shy boy. It helps when you have a decent group of good friends, then you feel better when ever you're around them.

I could go on and on.

Personal shit. I don't mind airing it out. Actually, I kind of need to... otherwise I will probably never be able to grow some balls and show Wendy in person just how much I like her. Perhaps, I fall a bit short in the love making department... but its only because I don't know how to make a move. Then, whenever I was approached by drunk girls I just figured they'd be better off if I didn't move on them.

My problem is that I get obsessed. It is a compulsive disorder. I also have some kind of a learning disability, socially. I was great at math, but my reading and comprehension are very poor. My ability to think fast is not good at all.

I do enjoy living. I can't deny that. Maybe, I ought to just go ahead and allow myself to live a little bit more... and find myself to be a man bound to nature and instinctual habits (such as the baby making process).

I can only hope that I live up to my potential. It seems as though I have plenty of songs and old recordings that no one listens to. I'm going to focus on getting my music produced and playable as a DJ / live set.



I'm still thinking of Wendy... FUCK! I'm gonna try and land some kisses when I see her, and see what her reaction is. I really can't think of anybody I would rather be with.


The main thing that I like about her is that she doesn't hold back. If she has something to say, she says it. Honesty is a key virtue.

One thing that I don't like is how I went out of my way to pay for beer and food while we were out, "hanging out as friends". Friends would split the bill, evenly! That is something I can easily let go, though... I would use any excuse to get to just hang out with her.


Alright, enough blogging about being desperately in love with one who doesn't wish for it.


Does any one like chicken fries?
They should add those to the Wendy's menu.




~theMuzzl3

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