I Should Forget

I Should Forget Myself.
You should forget yourself.
We are not selfish.
We do things for others.
With no expectation of a returned gesture.

We are not lost.
We belong in this world because we stopped believing:
In ourselves, and each other.
Each person does not have to step on another
In order to get ahead in life.

A mixture of things.
A florescent light bulb.
A high point in the crest of all peaks.
Deny one's self a selfish glory.
Destroy your destiny and avoid all things.

Get out.
Get out of my head.
Who are you?
Why are you in my head?
Are you okay?
I am worried.
You do not reply.

I give up.
You all have won.
I don't know where I came from;
But it was not this Earth.

One little alien baby.
I had a head shaped like a football.
My brain was damaged from birth.
My soul has been drained from the cost of living amongst you.

I am not pure.
Your soul must heal me.
I can not go on.
I must write about you.
You must ignore me;
Or, all hell will break lose.

Allow me to find my strength, once again.
I am a Monk of some sort.
I have possessions,
But I am a virgin.
A virgin, by choice;
As I have had opportunity to find sex.
I have only felt true love for two women;
Other than my mother.
Neither of those women returned my feelings of love.

Love is eternal.
It never goes away.
The last one that I loved:
Shattered my heart...
And for 9 years,
I did not allow my heart to beat
For another one.
The hurt that I feel:
Is worth loving, once again.

Now, that my heart beats:
I can feel the shattering coming.
Hell, it may as well have already happened.
No one wants my love;
And I am blinded by beauty.
Extinguish my desire.
Please, if there is a power higher than my own.
Extinguish my desire.

I am still.
My head is like a sail.
The wind picks up.
Which direction does it go?
The wind shall dictate the direction that we head in;
Once every thing blows up.
2012, or earlier?
Its our choice.
My choice is to stay, a little while longer;
Because I long for someone to love me...
Something that I shall never find.

They must all think for themselves;
And in thinking for themselves, they want for themselves.
I can not find an equal.
Just when I thought I did, I am blocked.
Is she dead?
Is she hurt?
What happened?
My guess is that she wants to be left alone.

My thoughts are too much.
Too much for this world.
This world will be demolished.
Its up to you to unite with me before the end.
We must spend as much time bonding as possible...
Or it will be all for waste.

The shit we live in:
Is the shit we shall live in.
Nothing shall change,
Unless you take it upon yourself:
To acknowledge me
For who I am.



~theMuzzl3

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